TODAY I PACKED UP MY LUGGAGE COZ I WILL MOVE TO MY NEW RENT HOUSE. I FOUND OUT SOME KEYS.  I HAVENOT USED THEM QUITE LONG TIME. THEY ARE MY HOME KEYS. WHEN I SAW THEM, I REALLY MISSED MY PARENTS. THE SCENE IS JUST LIKE YESTERDAY.  I OPENED DOOR, DINNER WAS READY AND PARENTS WAS WAITING FOR ME. WHEN I LEAVED MY HOMETOWN, AND LEAVED MY HOME, I REALIZED WHAT DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HOUSE AND HOME. NOW I AM IN A STRANGE CITY, I RENT HOUSE BUT IT IS NOT HOME. NOBODY WAS WAITING FOR ME DINNER. NOBODY WILL OPEN DOOR AND REQUIRE NOTHING BUT SMILE. I FEEL LIKE A SNAIL BUT WITHOUT SHELL. I AM TRYING TO FIND MY SHELL AND BE SAFE. BUT IT IS HARD. I MISS MY HOME. I MISS!

AFTER 4 DAYS YIWU BUSINESS TRIP. I FELT VERY TIRED. IT IS NOT COZ OF WORK. IT IS COZ OF LIFE. I REMEMBER BEFORE I LIKE TO USE THE WORD NAMED "放逐"。IT MEANS I THROW MYSELF TO SOME STRANGE PLACE. NOW I THROW MYSELF TO SHANGHAI. THE FEELING IS NOT GOOD. ALTHOUGH THE WORD "放逐"IN CHINESE HAVE SOME ROMANTIC FEELING. REALISTIC LIFE IS HARD. WE USUALLY PAID MUCH HARD TIME TO EXCHANGE FOR THE TWO WORDS. ANYWAY HOWEVER LONG I STAYED HERE. I AM STILL A STRANGE PERSON FOR THE CITY. WHERE I BELONG TO? IT IS HARD TO GET AN ANSWER, NO A GROUND BELONG TO ME. EVEN WHEN I DIE, THERE IS NO  GROUND TO ENTOMB ME I GUESS. ANYWAY I WISH TO SPRINKLE MY BONE ASH ON SEA. WHAT WE WILL LEAVE IN THE WORLD? IT IS NOTHING, JUST LIKE I NEVER COME. WHAT I WANNA SAY, MAYBE NOTHING. ANOTHER RAINNING EVENING. BETTER DRINK SOME GREEN TEA AND LISTEN TO THE RAIN. TO WET MY SADNESS FEELING.