YESTERDAY WAS A HARD DAY! WHOLE DAY STOMACHACHE, SLEEPY. WHEN I REACHED MY HOUSE, I TOOK SHOWER, I FELT I LOST POWER. FELT DEATH. ACHE FROM STOMACHE. I DIDNOT KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO WITH IT. MEDICHE MADE ME FEEL SICK. IT WAS QUITE LONG TIME THAT I HAVENOT SUCH HEAVY STOMACHACHE. IF I AM STILL ALIVE TOMORROW I SHOULD STOP TO EAT FAST NOODLE FOR A WHILE. I MISS DAD COOKING. BUT I COULDNOT EAT ANYTHING THIS NIGHT. I THROWED MYSELF IN MY BED. I TRY TO FALL IN SLEEP. ACHE FROM STOMACHE. DEAR, WHO U ARE MISSING? I ASKED MYSELF.OK, LET'S SLEEP. SEE, WHO WOULD RUN IN YOUR DREAM!

I WAS ON A BRIDGE WITH MANY LOCKS IN SNOW MOUNTAIN, I SAW A GUY ON THE OTHER SIDE OF BRIDGE WHO IS  SMILING TO ME, GIVING HIS HAND AND SAYING TO ME, DONT FEAR, DEAR,COME HERE! I WAS TRYING GIVE HIM MY HAND. BUT I FALLED DOWN AND WAKED UP.

I SAW A BUNCH OF  SUNLIGHT OPENED MY WHITE CURTAIN.

there is devil in our deep heart. he is locked inside.if he rushed out of coop some time,we would be another different ourselves. yesterday i unlocked him, and i packing a sunny smile in my heart. but my dear, u'd better to know u are not lucky every time.

今天在公交车上看了一段新闻，一家人掉进了湖里，小孩被好心人救上来了，还在抢救中。孩子的父亲已经溺水死掉了，孩子母亲的尸体还在打捞中。画面上人们在给孩子做人工呼吸及心脏复苏。孩子小小的身体在人们的手中，像一个小洋娃娃一样。他如此的脆弱，他还不知道自己已经变成了孤儿，双亲已经不再了。他还未进学校学“孤儿”这个词意，就不得不学会了解他的意味了。我在想生命是如此的脆弱，不堪一击。我们深爱的，依恋的人，乃至我们自己，可能随时会在无意识的状态下，跌进另一个未知的世界里，从此消失在这个世界。我想如果自己消失是不会觉得痛苦的，但看着身边的人，至亲至爱的离去，才是最痛苦的。而我们自己更多的是遗憾，很多想说的话未说出口，很多事一直瞻前顾后，而无法完成。很多梦想都只留在梦里了，未带到现实里来。我们可以做些什么呢，我们无法预测未来，所以还要小心翼翼的活着，还是要迟疑，还是要把话留在肚子里，还是没办法抛开现实义无反顾的把自己丢进梦里。我想要对自己说些什么呢？

DOUBLE SCOOP ICECREAM!

YESTERDAY IS DRAGON BOAT FESTIVAL. WHEN I REACHED MY RENT HOUSE, IT WAS ALREADY QUITE LATE.AFTER DINNER I STAYED IN MY RENT ROOM. ALONE AGAIN. I THOUGHT OF MY LIFE AGAIN.  YEP,  LIFE?  LIFE?  LIFE!  HAVE I MISSED SOMETHING?

THIS MORNING WHEN I WAKED UP, I SAW SOMEONE ON THE MIRROR. I DONT LIKE HER. BUT SHE IS ALREADY WITH ME 27 YEARS AND 8 MONTHS. EVERY DAY I AM WITH HER. SHE KNOW ALL MY THOUGHT. BUT SOME TIME I DONT UNDERSTAND HER. I ASK HER WHO ARE U AND WHERE ARE U FROM. SHE ANSWERED ME THAT SHE FROM MOON. WHAT A SILLY GIRL! WHY I HAVE TO BE WITH HER. I WANNA SOMEONE INSTEAD OF HER. BUT IT IS IMPOSSIBLE. SO WE ARE FIGHTING AND FIGHTING.

I TELL HER I DONT LIKE U. BUT SHE TELLS ME "U NEED STUDY TO LOVE ME, COZ MY NAME IS MYSELF."